Apocalypse Now Now -
When you watch Willard’s face emerge from the shadows at the end, you aren’t looking at a character. You are looking at Francis Ford Coppola, Martin Sheen, and the ghost of the 1970s, staring into the abyss.
Coppola suffered a seizure. He lost 100 pounds. He threatened to kill himself on set. In the infamous documentary Hearts of Darkness , his wife, Eleanor, captures him rocking back and forth, screaming into a satellite phone: “I’m losing my mind! This film is not about Vietnam. This is Vietnam! ” Apocalypse Now Now
And the abyss whispers back: “I love the smell of napalm in the morning.” The film cost $31.5 million (over $130 million today). It made $150 million worldwide. Coppola declared bankruptcy anyway, not because of the film’s failure, but because he stopped working for a decade to recover his soul. He never made another film that risky again. But he didn't need to. He had already touched the horror. When you watch Willard’s face emerge from the