A young woman named Mei, struggling with a new addiction, sat next to him. She was crying.
Lin Wei scoffed. I know this already.
He simply whispered, “Lord… I quit.” The Complete Works of Watchman Nee - Grace In Christianity
He fell to his knees beside his bed. He didn't pray his usual prayer—the long list of requests, the groveling apologies, the promises to try harder.
He was the backbone of the Morning Star Church in Singapore. He led the worship team, taught the adult Sunday school, and was the first to arrive on Saturdays to mop the sanctuary floor. His Bible was a mosaic of highlighters and margin notes. Everyone called him “Brother Faithful.” A young woman named Mei, struggling with a
His theology was a ledger sheet. Every prayer was a deposit, every sinful thought a withdrawal. When he read the Sermon on the Mount, he didn’t see blessing; he saw a failure report. Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect. The words felt like a whip.
But then he read a passage that stopped his breath. Nee described a Christian trying to be humble. The man clenches his jaw, lowers his voice, and forces a smile. He calls this "victory." But inside, his pride is boiling. Nee wrote: “The effort to suppress the self is not the cross; it is civil war. Grace is not God helping you to be better. Grace is God agreeing to live His life through you instead of you trying to live yours for Him.” I know this already
That night, unable to sleep, he opened to a random chapter. The title was “The Deception of the Natural Life.” Watchman Nee wrote about the difference between doing good and being good. He wrote about Adam’s fig leaves—religion sewn by human hands to cover a shame that only God’s sacrifice could heal.